Tuesday was the day for which we had been waiting over 11 months. After all that, it still came quicker than we expected. We got word that our adoption would be moving forward. Concerns have been cleared up, and everyone involved agreed it was time to go to the next step. (Much still needs to happen before we can travel.)
The worst case scenario has seemed very real in the past few months, so the best case scenario happening was surprising. Once it sank in, I started crying. Though I had expected the worse almost the whole time, the last few weeks have been filled with much hope and peace. I had begun to feel God was telling me it would all be okay, but I didn’t tell anyone — even Dan — because I was so afraid to believe it. So, when I sat down to share the news with our closest family and friends, I couldn’t help but cry.
I have learned a whole lot about adoption ethics. And honestly, I had chosen to be naive to a lot. My eyes have been opened to the importance of advocating for an ethical adoption. And opened to the yuckyness of the international adoption world and some of the people in it. That’s another post.
Because more importantly: I have learned a lot about expecting good, huge things out of God. And accepting the confirmation that good, huge things will happen. I know there may be times in my life I misunderstand what He’s telling me. And I’ll willingly admit that. But why not give Him the benefit of the doubt? I wish I had all along with this one.
High on excitement, we got cupcakes to celebrate. Forget weight loss challenges, this family celebrates with dessert! (No #alittletoofluffy this week, because you guys, Meredith’s visit + tons of happiness + date night = no weight loss.)
The next day, we got update photos of our sweet boys. Such wonderful timing! They are so big, though still tiny. E was wearing a university shirt that we didn’t send. And funny enough, it’s Dan’s residency program university! It felt like God was winking at us.
We were also awarded another grant this week! We’ve always been committed to contributing as much of our money as possible while working our butts off to apply for grants and fundraise.
And to top it all off, we happily agreed to host another kiddo through Safe Families. Miss A came today, and she’ll be here for a week. Dan’s schedule is a little rough right now, so it’s going to be a difficult week, I think. But a realistic week. I’m happy to have any unrealistic views I still have of kids + residency + dog life shattered. Well, I’m saying that right now. Check in with me next week.