Me: “I should blog. I don’t want to.”
Husband: “You have to blog your word for the year!!!”
Me: “Well, I really don’t have to. But I guess I will. Should I just tell everyone I should have gone to counseling a while ago?”
Husband smiles and walks out of the room.
It’s a blogger thing to do, and I’m more into it than resolutions, so I have picked a word for the year the last couple years (2014, 2015). I’ve already thought about my word a lot, and I’m making regular efforts to pursue it already.
Wellness. Emotional, spiritual, physical.
I ended 2015 feeling a little off-kilter. I don’t know if it’s age or parenthood or just knowing more people and experiencing more things, but I’ve felt a weight that’s heavier than years past. People have hurts. One example out of so many: Our church small group has experienced significant weighty stuff this year. I wish I could take it all away for those who are hurting.
I have hurts… Emotional hurts tied to an adoption that was to be completed before my sons turned one year old and is now an adoption of “older children” who started school this year in a country halfway across the world. I have physical hurts I’ve waited too long to address. A medication I’m not sure has benefited me in some time, and chronic pain that affects my ability to sleep well in the early morning hours.
Just like Walgreens’ wish for me, I too want to “be well.”
I have a very good idea of what it takes for me to be well. It starts with my relationship with God. It intertwines with exercise and eating foods that are good for my body. It snakes through my hobbies and interests and passions. It looks like time spent striving to work effectively as a social worker in my community. It might very well have to do with finally seeing a counselor. It has already looked like physical therapy.
Being well means pulling back in some areas of my life and leaning further into others. I want to feel good, and I want to make others feel good. My God does not promise a happy go-lucky life, but I do want to be sure I’m savoring every inch of life He’s given me.